Wind.

I’m at a point in my life that we all come to every now and then where we have to decide if we’re going to fight the wind … or let it carry us.  Sometimes things don’t go as perfectly as we have them planned in our minds. Sure, life threw us a few curveballs this week.

It’s ok, we adjust.

Everything is ok with me, I’m still feeling as great as I could expect in the 9th month of my pregnancy.  Baby is healthy, I am healthy and my family is so ready for it’s newest member.  We are beyond excited to meet him!  But that’s the easy part for me.  The hardest part, and the one I never expected is the fear that has set in recently.  Fear on a few different levels.  Fear that I won’t be able to strike a balance between work and family with two little ones in tow instead of just one.  Will I? Is it even possible?  I’ve been officially “off” for about a week now, and I’m left with time to (finally) think and a mind that’s racing to find these answers.  Of course, I won’t know until I’m there.   And then there’s the fear that comes with taking a step back from a busy business if even for a short time.  When you are the business, this is completely overwhelming and consuming.  I’ve been here before, I took about 6 weeks away when my husband ran his election.  I turned away client after client during that time and prayed that they would come back to me.  And they did.

Although I’m not sure exactly where this post is headed, writing for me is often therapeutic.  Something about writing out your fears (even if on a public forum) gives you the courage to overcome them.  To conquer them, call them out for what they are so you know they exist and move forward.

The next few weeks for us are going to be a whirlwind of joy, excitement and adjustment in our lives.  And I’m looking forward to adjusting my sails and seeing where the wind will carry me.